It’s hard to believe that we who appear to be strong in the eyes of many, behind close doors how easy we break apart. I’ve been there so many times, but one day God had my attention. After dealing with something for so long and depending on my own strength, I broke. Me who stood strong and was mature enough to ‘eat the meat and throw out the bones’; who searched for the single light in the tunnel and held on to that light as hope, smiling my way through; who saw the glass as half full and not half empty. Suddenly there was a shift.
Sometimes there comes a breaking point in the midst of what we go through in life that we search desperately for the strength we’ve always depended on and barely grasp at withered straws…
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christʼs power may rest on me. That is why, for Christʼs sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
2 Corinthians 12:9-10 NIV
It’s always in our weakness that God steps in and shows himself strong and as much as i’ve been through in life I suddenly realized that I’ve taken his strength for granted. The many times he’s stepped in when I didn’t know what to do and where to go, how easy it is to forget when we face situations where we know it is the will of God but think we can be strong enough to endure the devils on those levels with our own strength. Because you may be on the path God has directed you on does not mean that trials will not come to convince you otherwise.
But moreover I was misinterpreting the source of my strength. It appears that the strength I thought was God’s all along was really my own.
It’s not enough to be directed of God and think that because he is walking with us that we can walk in our own strength. It is through our weakness that he reveals things to us and through us, to keep us from giving up. Strangely enough I have learned that our strength to carry on depends on our weakness to give up. It is then that God steps in and shows us why we shouldn’t give up because his time is not our time and he is always right on time.
Why is the Lord always right on time? It’s the time that we give up our strength and come into his strength that we see him work. Therefore, his time will never be our time but our time is always when he steps in and shows himself strong on our behalf.
“For the eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to shew himself strong in the behalf of them whose heart is perfect toward him.” 2 Chronicles 16:9 KJV